When you put it like that I see the sordid reality and reinforces the need for me to leave.
Yes he’s younger than me and in real life I’m not “ into “ younger guys . But in the online world ages don’t seem relevant as we are communing on an invisible plane ( though we do exchange pics sometimes).
But I guess seen from the outside it would look like a case of desperate old woman wanting a younger man for sex etc because they can’t find a real man because they’re old, ugly etc
This is far from what this is about - I’m not showing off but I’m not ugly and have never lacked a man in “ real life” - indeed I have a partner ( who for reasons I can’t explain , I cannot leave) - and the feeling I have for this guy are pure
That’s why it devastate me to think what a horrible cheap game it may be in the reality
interesting post Jisela. Seen like this it puts things in perspective- as you say dreams are a luxury and life there is harsh - the cold reality of this is painful but trueGalleta, I can promise you, if this thing was suddenly exposed to the public, you would not be able to deny any aspect of the reality of this situation, all of the blind spots, and all of the game that this really is... this thing is surviving because it's hidden and it's in a dream world.
Your rat lives in a harsh reality not buffered by a thriving economy... it's in an impoverished setting, with survive or die mentality, men who have sex with men in gender segregation to vent sexual frustration, they also sell themselves to male tourists... as they chase after other Tunisian women who will put out - of course, they see themselves as eventually getting the Tunisian virgin and settling down into a "respectable Tunisian muslim male" life... whatever that looks like exactly mixed with bezness.
Your rat is not thinking like you. Dreams are afforded to the rich, not to the poor and in Tunisia. Dreams in Tunisia are dangerous and lead to deadly and devastating outcomes. They know this, and your rat knows this speaking with an older, married woman.
I have to end it for the 2 of us- I’m wasting his time and he, mine
Though I’m the only one who will get hurt