Star USA: Your welcome dear! I am happy and glad that my words can make you feel better and help you through this very hard time! We're here for you! See clearly: I know exactly what you mean! Honestly, signing in these forums helped and I felt less guilty. I used to feel ashamed and mad at myself! But talking to people who understand me and got through the same situation, really saved me! Very often I was afraid to be judged and even in front of my parents, I felt so ashamed... My mother could understand but it front of my dad it was really hard...! My rat was doing grocery shopping everyday and he bought more soda than water! So sometimes when I was super thirsty, I had to drink soda and he was nagging me, drinking the tunisian water! Why? Because I had to get fatter so I had to drink soda! Honnestly... He is mentally sick! Heidi: I will out them as well! And from now, each time I will go to Tunisia, I will be very careful and keep on talking and hanging out with them to get names and know some more about their methods to post everything here!